I just weighed myself for the first time since I can remember and wasn’t pleased with the results. I didn’t think I would be 100 pounds but I definitely didn’t think I would be what I was. It’s times like these that I feel most insecure about myself. Do people see me as my weight? I feel like it is posted on my forehead, on my body, for everyone to judge. No longer am I seen as a human being or a person. No longer am I seen as Lauren. Now I am seen as 159 pounds. A number.